Jeep Jeep!

I finally decided I needed to get out of the pity party I was throwing myself. Yes, I was home sick. Yes, I was prob acting like a brat. Yes, I left behind a really hot Spaniard! Damn. That last one still stings. But on the bright side... okay, other then seeing my family and friends again, I haven't found one. No. I'm kidding. Life is def getting better. I'm working again. I have a few concerts lined up. My parents said they'd help me pay for the Jeep that I want. So things are looking up. Maybe I got used to living back at home. Nah. That still sux. Maybe I got used to borrowing the family van. Nah. That sux even more. I think I just realized, it's okay to be in "idle" right now. And it's only temporary. I was so used being "on the go" and not thinking. It was a lot of emotions to deal with upon my return. More then I ever realized. My year abroad wasn't just some luxury holiday. It had a purpose and a real meaning. I packed up all my worldly possessions (what was left of them anyway). I left all my family & friends behind (along with all my comforts). I missed out (sacrificed) a few weddings, a few births, all the holidays and some very important graduations (which can leave you lonely). But I needed to get away and as cliche as it sounds, "discovery myself". And I think I did. I learned so much! I learned how strong and capable I really am. Not to mention independent. I did this all entirely on my own! I only hope to continue to grow from it (esp the balls that I gained!). I guess the hard part has been dealing with everything I left behind. I have a lot of emotional baggage to deal with. Just bc you pack it up and store it away for a year, doesn't mean it will go away. I was accused of of running away from my problems once. I did run away this time. But this time I came back stronger.

Days Of Thunder

I'm feeling better these days. I'm almost over my reverse culture shock. I think. Maybe it's been bc I've been really busy. I haven't had time to sulk. AND spending time with my niece has been a so wonderful. It's just been hard on me here. I really really miss London! I can't even begin to explain it. I fell in love with that city. I loved my life there. I miss my park! I miss my international friends! I miss Jorge sooooooo much!! I even miss the weather! It didn't even feel like fall today! I was all hot and crap! Ha ha. I just feel frustrated and overwhelmed for some reason. I can't completely shake it. I get so annoyed so easily these days. Luckily my friend Chris has been keeping me occupied. I'm so grateful to him! He's such a good friend. I adore him! Sometimes you just need a good friend to set you straight.

More Baby Pics!!

Birthday Baby!!

How gorgeous is my baby niece!!?? Ahhh...I can't get enough of this adorable little tot! She's my little pumpkin! And she's such an easy baby to take care of. She's not like one of those cry-baby babies. I love it. She was so cute this Saturday. While I was holding her and getting to know her better, everyone kept wanting to take her from me! But I don't know what happened to make her not want go with any one else but me!! I loved it!! All my sisters were getting all mad. Ha ha. She only wanted to be with me. She wouldn't let anyone take her. She would turn back around and hug me! And it's so funny because I have only known her for such a short time. I was worried that she wouldn't take to me right away. Well I guess we all know who her fave auntie is now!!