One Fine Christmas!

I had a merry xmas this year. Esp since last year I was with out one. This year was a beauty. And I can't wait for what's in store for the new year!

Jeep Jeep!

I finally decided I needed to get out of the pity party I was throwing myself. Yes, I was home sick. Yes, I was prob acting like a brat. Yes, I left behind a really hot Spaniard! Damn. That last one still stings. But on the bright side... okay, other then seeing my family and friends again, I haven't found one. No. I'm kidding. Life is def getting better. I'm working again. I have a few concerts lined up. My parents said they'd help me pay for the Jeep that I want. So things are looking up. Maybe I got used to living back at home. Nah. That still sux. Maybe I got used to borrowing the family van. Nah. That sux even more. I think I just realized, it's okay to be in "idle" right now. And it's only temporary. I was so used being "on the go" and not thinking. It was a lot of emotions to deal with upon my return. More then I ever realized. My year abroad wasn't just some luxury holiday. It had a purpose and a real meaning. I packed up all my worldly possessions (what was left of them anyway). I left all my family & friends behind (along with all my comforts). I missed out (sacrificed) a few weddings, a few births, all the holidays and some very important graduations (which can leave you lonely). But I needed to get away and as cliche as it sounds, "discovery myself". And I think I did. I learned so much! I learned how strong and capable I really am. Not to mention independent. I did this all entirely on my own! I only hope to continue to grow from it (esp the balls that I gained!). I guess the hard part has been dealing with everything I left behind. I have a lot of emotional baggage to deal with. Just bc you pack it up and store it away for a year, doesn't mean it will go away. I was accused of of running away from my problems once. I did run away this time. But this time I came back stronger.

Days Of Thunder

I'm feeling better these days. I'm almost over my reverse culture shock. I think. Maybe it's been bc I've been really busy. I haven't had time to sulk. AND spending time with my niece has been a so wonderful. It's just been hard on me here. I really really miss London! I can't even begin to explain it. I fell in love with that city. I loved my life there. I miss my park! I miss my international friends! I miss Jorge sooooooo much!! I even miss the weather! It didn't even feel like fall today! I was all hot and crap! Ha ha. I just feel frustrated and overwhelmed for some reason. I can't completely shake it. I get so annoyed so easily these days. Luckily my friend Chris has been keeping me occupied. I'm so grateful to him! He's such a good friend. I adore him! Sometimes you just need a good friend to set you straight.

More Baby Pics!!

Birthday Baby!!

How gorgeous is my baby niece!!?? Ahhh...I can't get enough of this adorable little tot! She's my little pumpkin! And she's such an easy baby to take care of. She's not like one of those cry-baby babies. I love it. She was so cute this Saturday. While I was holding her and getting to know her better, everyone kept wanting to take her from me! But I don't know what happened to make her not want go with any one else but me!! I loved it!! All my sisters were getting all mad. Ha ha. She only wanted to be with me. She wouldn't let anyone take her. She would turn back around and hug me! And it's so funny because I have only known her for such a short time. I was worried that she wouldn't take to me right away. Well I guess we all know who her fave auntie is now!!

Worth The Wait!

Some things are worth waiting for. At least for the time being! ; )

Worth It

It seriously sux being home. I'm just antsey and I don't know what to do with myself. BUT I must say...meeting this little tot (my beautiful niece) for the first time made it all worth it. It's weird to love someone one you don't even know. And we are so excited...Victoria turns 1 next month! Isn't she a cutie??!! She looks just like my little bro!

Home Sweet Home

It's been about 10 days since I've been back in so cal. And to be honest I have really enjoyed being home. There was so much I've missed. But at the same time, I can't help but feel all the other emotions too....like suffocation. I can't help it. My life here is so different from my life in London. AND it doesn't help that I met a really HOT Spaniard and he wants me to come stay with him in Spain! Ahhhh... I'm thinking about it. ;)

Chasing Time

Lauren & Me


These are my last few days here in London. I am so sad to leave. SO much has happened in my last days here that make it that much harder to leave. I shouldn't even be on here as we speak! I have so much to do!! I have been cleaning out a years worth of stuff and I still can't manage to fit it all in my luggage! Ugh! It's really stressful. Plus I'm suppose to go shopping to pick up all the last minute gifts but I can't bring myself to get anything done!


Instead I feel like hiding in my little cave here in Reload. I get my coffee & internet for free. I get to chat it up with a good friend and it makes me feel safe. It's so weird.

My Birthday!


AND I've met someone really cool. Actually this week I have been doing really good. I swear all the boys come all at once.... First it was my bday and I met ... shite, I forgot his name!! Oh well, that was one to forget anyway! He was this American guy from Utah. Needless to say he was Morman, BUT not acting very Mormanly-like! ha ha. But I still had fun. Then the next day I met up with David the Scottish guy that I met in Spain. He lives in London and just got back. he took me out for dinner. Plus we had a fling in Spain so we flung it again! ha ha. He's really sweet too. AND... man... that accent!! Wooooo... So now I'm all sad bc I met someone else, Jorge who is from Spain that lives in my building and is totally HOT! BUT I never thought so at first until I got to know him and now we are having dinner tonight. I have this HUGE crush on him too. But he's not a fling type. He's one of those boyfriend material types. AHHHH.... why do I meet someone really cool right before I'm about to leave!!?? He even invited me to come visit him in Sevilla!! Actually, he's convincing me to move there instead of Barcelona. Hmmm...